Wednesday, December 29, 2010

我要我的快樂



看著面子書上的生日祝福,
我苦笑著。

一早起來,
我就收到了一個坏消息,
媽媽突然改變主意,
不想去檳城了。
我唯一的快樂也被奪走了。
沒去吉隆坡也就算了,
減少我上網的時間也沒關係,
可是檳城也去不了,
爲什麽?!

沒有朋友來幫我慶祝生日,
我本來就很失落。
現在,連檳城也去不了,
我想我也難免會失望吧?
與其跟媽媽大吵大鬧,
我倒不如保持沉默。
我不想在我的大日子裏
還跟親人大吵大鬧的,
這樣很不理智,
也很大義不孝。

我真的很不開心,
我想大聲地
吼出來,
可是,我辦不到。
最好這樣能憋死我啦。

我希望我在新的一年裏
能變得更灑脫,更成熟。
不要那麽執著,鑽牛角尖了,
這樣活著,會很累了。
活得開心就好。

Sunday, December 26, 2010

夢想與現實



《紅蜻蜓》真是一首經典好歌。
它唱出了我當下的心情。
讀完了九把刀的《后青春期的詩》,
心理多了不少感慨。
感慨我的青春已不在,
感慨我沒在年少輕狂的時候
為自己作了一些瘋狂的事。
我過得太平凡了,
太乖了。

“我們該為我們的人生交上功課。”
這句話寫得太好了。
我們本該為自己的夢想努力地奮鬥,
不管前方路途遙遠,
有多艱難,
我們不放棄,
終有一天,
我們的夢想會被實現的,
不是嗎?

我小時候也有這樣一個夢想。
而我的夢想就是想成爲一名作家。
然而,夢想和現實之間是
有著一段很遙遠的距離。
我們常常說:
“夢想不能當飯吃。”
這是鉄一般的事實,
誰也改變不了的事實。

然而,我真的有為我的夢想而努力嗎?
我沒有。
夢想敗給了現實,
我想是吧。
夢想歸夢想,
我不想當個一輩子被
夢想綁死死的窮光蛋。

然而,我的心如今燃起了一把火。
我想,我該為我的夢想做些什麽的。
加油吧,小王子。


“Dreams are like stars...
you may never touch them,
but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Life sucks :s



Finally, I can go online.
Life without Internet sucks, man.
I know right, I have repeated this
sentence for N times.

Well, I just got home two days ago.
The Malacca trip was just okay.
I don't know if I were expecting too much
or what but I just didn't really enjoy it. :s
On the other hand, I did enjoy the Kl trip. :D

Anyway, I am supposed to be in
Hong Kong by now but I am not.
Plan got cancelled due to
some personal reasons.
Damn, how I wished I am in
Hong Kong right now. T_T
And what sadden me is that
I can't even go to Kl.
It means that I will need to
celebrate my birthday all by my own.
This is just so sad.
Or a better word, pathetic. :s



Anyway, I want to wish everyone Merry Christmas
and Happy New Year in advance! Enjoy! :)


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Doubts and uncertainties


At last, I am free.
I am supposed to be happy
right now but I ain't
feeling that way.
Why?
I ponder. :@

Maybe the holiday mood
haven't hit me yet?
Or maybe because I am all alone
in Kampar now? :s



Well, I screwed up but there
is no point for me to dwell on it now
because things once done
can't be undone.
So, I should leave it alone now.
But I couldn't help myself to
think about the burden
that I am going to face with
on next semester.



I couldn't imagine myself taking
good care of all the Science
subjects while making sure
that I won't flunk my Mathematics paper.
This is just too heavy for me.
But that's the only option that
I have right now.

At the same time,
I have to make sure that
I earn 50 credits and pass the two Lan units
before my Y1S2,
which is before my industrial training.

Well, I know it's still too early for me
to fill myself with these unnecessary
doubts but then again, I couldn't help it.
Someone please distract me? :/

Recently, I spent quite a lot of money.
Sometimes, I wished that there is
another way for me to earn it back too.
Help?

Well, I guess that's all for now.
Anyway, happy holiday
to all my coursemates! :)
See ya!


Monday, December 6, 2010

A moment like this. :D



These few days have been
the busiest days of my life.
I am like log in to
Facebook twice a day only.
That's new, right? :p

For your
extra information,
I was crowned with the title
of Facebook-King since
I was doing my foundation
and now, some of my friends
still calling me that.
They claimed that I log in
to Facebook 24 hours per day.
I HAVE NO LIFE. :/



Friday, 3rd of December

Me, Kacee, Ch and Ger have our dinner together
at Premas.
Then, we went to cybercafe to play L4D 2.
Kacee rejected to join us at first
and but then we actually made Kacee to go with us. xD

Saturday, 4th of December

Me, Kent, Kacee, Ch and Ger
went to Old Town to have our breakfast there.
Then, we went to Kent's house
to shelter ourselves from the rain.
Later on, I went to campus to attend a campaign called
Kempen Alam Sekitar.

The campaign was a big success,
I never regret that I joined. :D
It was so much fun to see my gang
perform in dramas
and I never knew that
Ean can act so good.
He is professional, man. HAHA~

I headed back to home right after the campaign.
Then, I went to play badminton with the triple K.
I was so stupid that I overwork myself
and ended up, I puke everywhere.
Pity my poor body condition,
I am pretty sure that I looked so pale
that almost made people think that I am a zombie.
Thanks to Kacee, Kent and Ch for tooking care of me
when I was so weak. :)

Later at night,
me, triple K and Ger headed to cybercafe again
because Kent was being jealous that
he couldn't join us on Friday night.
After that,
we celebrated Ger's birthday
together with
Wallance and Bertlin.





Then, me, Ch and Ger went
to have lok lok while
Kent and Kacee was watching
us enjoying our lok lok.

This is mainly because:
1,
Kent said that if he wanted to eat lok lok,
few sticks won't satisfy him.
He will finish everything at the stall. LOL~
(Don't kill me please if you see this, Kent. xD)
2,
Kacee said that she won't eat lok lok at other places
except the one who owned by her brother.
(Kacee, stupiak theory, booo~~~~~
Again, don't kill me please if you see this xD)

The night is not ended just like that only.
We headed to mamak to have some talks.
Then, Ger was being so random,
he felt like having ice cream
out of the sudden.

So, we head to McD.
We planned to stay there until 4am
and then we will have our breakfast at McD
but Ger was too tired and so,
we called it a night.
(I think I tortured Kacee a lot at that time
because she wanted to go home
but I won't allow her to do so,
evil me,
hehehehehe! xD)

Monday, 6th of December

Five of us went to Old Town
to have breakfast together again.
Kacee was being a S.A.K.A.I
because she was imitating the
uncle that selling
*ham kok zai*
and she keep shouting *ham kok zai*
to annoy us. -.-
So childish of her, right? xD
Then, we went to
Kent's house.
We were playing PS2, man.
I haven't play that for I-don't-know-how-long.
Later at night, we went to
Sze Ung's house to
give her a birthday surprise.



I hope she likes our surprise though. :)
Then,
Kah Leng came to join us and
went to have dinner
together with us.
After that, we headed to Ch's house for revision.
And then, we called it a night.
What a enjoying monday, right? :D

Picture of the day

Inilah muka orang yang sibuk main game. xD

Friday, December 3, 2010

Emotion


This is weird.
People claimed that
I am a little bit different today.
Just because I shut my freaking mouth,
that's not mean that I am
emo or whatsoever. -.-
People, I am perfectly fine,
so, no worries. :)

But something is really wrong with me,
Because I find it hard for me to
control my temper recently.
I couldn't stop using shut up.
I think I have abused the word. :/
So, people, if I offended you by that word,
I am very sorry, I didn't mean it that way.



I have been a lazy bum these days.
All I did is watching reality shows,
surfing the internet,
hang out with my friends
but nothing more.
I better start digging notes now.

I don't know if I can pass my PM or not.
Damn, I screwed up my test 2.
I never expect myself will get
such low marks. :s

There is one thing that I want to share here.
I think I will feel much better
if I choose to share it out.



Dear housemates, especially those
who stay at 2nd floor,
seriously, damn you these people lar.
I am so done with you people.
I didn't take any action to revenge
on you guys because most of you are girls
and I am a guy,
I ought to be more nice to you people.
But then, you guys never respect me.
I didn't expect you guys to smile to me
or whatsoever
but at least, don't make such face
to me when we meet.
And please, this is not your house,
don't always expect others to help you
to clean up the living room.
I didn't ask you guys to clean the
living room, but at least,
don't make it dirty, can or not?
It's always smelly and the area near
to the sink in the living room is
always stuffed with rubbish,
can't you guys just throw
it at somewhere else?
Not to mention
about the laggy internet issue.

Okay, I am done whining.
ARGH! I wish nothing but these people
to move out from my house.
Time to bed, I wish tomorrow
is going to be a better day. :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Crazy life, crazy people, crazy me

Oops I did it again.

I mean, I did crazy things again. xD

It was a coincidence actually.
Me and my two daughters
took the bus after we
finished our PM class.
Then, we walked our way to New Town.
After that, we met Polar, QJ and Sally,
so I suggested to have dinner together.
Then, we decided to have our dinner at
668 串串炉.
So random, right?
Well, that's me. :p

We went there at 9pm and we
finished our dinner at 11++pm.
W00ts! :D



Well,
This is not the only crazy thing
that I did in this week.
I went to sing K with the
Triple K and Ger
after our Computer System
group presentation.
IT'S INDEED FUN!
AND WILD TOO!
RAWR!
HAHA!
I never had these much fun before.
We
really sang ourselves out loud on that night.
Quoted from Kent:
"
The sakai-ness continues..."
More to come, people. :P

P/s: Sorry, I always forgot to take
pictures while we were having fun. :/

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Mama


"Mama, you gave life to me...
Goodbye is the saddest word that I hear..."

Can you feel me?

I just finished watching
One Million Star (超级星光大道).
I was weeping again when I watched
the performance of Erika.

Erika singing
Goodbye is the saddest word



My tears continue to fall when
I watched the performance of 陈珂冰.

陈珂冰 singing
You light up my life



Both of them were dedicating the
songs to their mum.
My emotion was too strong that
I couldn't stop dropping tears.

I still remember that how
bad ass I was back then.
I am so sorry, mum.
I will love you more now.

My mum's unfailing and unconditional love
is the strongest strength for me
to keep on fighting for life.

I couldn't afford to lose my mum now.
I can give up everything that I have now
but not my mum.
Damn, I just have so many emotion
inside of me now.
I feel like singing out loud both of the songs and
dedicate to my mum now.
And I want to tell my mum now that
how much I love her.


Mama, I love you.

P/s: Will update again on what
had happening yesterday.
Till then.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Crazy and sentimental much


I was weeping when I watched
A letter from Mom and Dad
.
Don't mind me,
I am a sentimental freak.

What's the
saddest thing that
ever happened in my life?
Yes, it's about my dad.
Me and my mum were not
there when my dad passed away.

I still remember that night.
Those roads were crowded with vehicles.
I had so much things that
I wanted to share with my dad
but I were not given a chance to talk to him,
not even once.
I miss you, dad.
Sometimes, I think you are still here,
it's just that we can't see your presence
but we can feel you.



"Those who do not know how to weep with their
whole heart don't know how to laugh either."

It's true.

People won't learn to appreciate things
until they lost it
once.

Okay, no more sad stories.

I am sure everyone
had a blast yesterday night.
It was the
craziest party ever.
No doubt.
There are few things that I want to
highlight.
Throwing the pieces of cake to each others,
that's first.
Second, we were eating the
cake on the floor.
Then, we had
true or dare.
Crazy much. xD



Sorry, I don't have the photos
with me right now
because I took those photos
with my analouge camera.
Don't blame me if those
photos were not properly taken.
I am still new to Lomography. >///<

Okay,that's all for now.
More to come. :)

Friday, November 19, 2010

Laughters and Joys :D


Okay, why rain now?
I find it very annoying.
It's like everytime when
I thought of going out to have dinner
and it rains. WTH?!
Alright, let's not going too far
from the topic, alright?
Why I feel myself behave like
an old man now that
always whine about almost everything?
Dilemma. LOL.

The Ipoh 1 day trip was awesome.
We went to Ipoh yesterday.
First, we have our dinner at this
cafe called Momo Cafe+Steamboat.


Location: Padang Ipoh
(It's located at the same row
as Old Town White Coffee)


The sauces


The menu


The materials


The side dishes
I especially like the lamb chop.


Momo Roasted Chicken :D


4 of us, bloated. >///<>
cheap actually.

Then, we went to Ipoh Jusco to watch
Unstoppable.


It's thrilling! :D
I like this kind of movie!
It makes your heart
pumping real hard every
second all along the movie and it's
UNSTOPPABLE.
You can feel the
chill
running up your spine. ;p

So, after the movie,
we went to McD.
We were talking, gossiping,
laughing real hard all along. :D
We had come to a conclusion
saying that playing the *
Heart Attack*
is even thrilling than watching
the movie - Unstoppable.
LOL

Last but not least,
we went to Fu Shan Dim Sum
to have our breakfast before
we went back to Kampar.


What a enjoyable+crazy+random trip. =p

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Those craziest days in my life.

Just celebrated Vivian's birthday with the gang. :D
Life is awesome that to a point
that I couldn't complain.
No stress, just sit back and relax.
How enjoying. :p
Still, I need to prepare myself
for next week test. :/

Past two days was my craziest
period in my life.
I should start the story from
the very beginning.

It was Sunday night.
When it's 11pm,
I went to McD with friends.
I reached home when it was 1am.
Then, I tried to sleep but
I couldn't help myself
for staying up late.
I slept at 3am and
I got class at 8am. -.-



After class,
I went to Pit Hung's
house to help them with their
computer assignment.
I worked myself until 5pm.
Then, we went to campus
to attend PM class.

After that,
I was informed that
I need to redo my PM assignment. >///<

So, I went to Juelyssa's house at 10pm
and then worked myself until 3am.
Imagine, how tired could I be?
On the next day, I woke up at 1pm.
Then, I went to Pit Hung's house again.
I worked myself from 3pm to 8pm.
After that, I suggested to my group
to have file management for our
computer assignment.
Because it's kinda messy.
So, I did.

I managed to finished everything at 4am.
Gosh, I must be workaholic. -.-
I don't think I can take this anymore.
I am so glad that I am finally
done with all my assignments. Thank God.

Friday, November 12, 2010

New Dawn

Sometimes, we just lost the compassion
to do the same thing again.

So, answer me, will you do those stupid things
like what you did in the past all over again?
Well, I bet most of you will answer:"No."
But I will say yes.
It's not like I am childish or what,
it's because that we are still young!
We ought to be happy,
not depressing over some small matters.
(Sarcastically, I am the one who
is always who feels emotional.)
Irony huh?


2. Reminiscing the good times.

Finally, I am almost done with
my assignments.
I want to say sorry to my groupmates here if
I weren't doing my job
as I supposed to.
Thanks to all my groupmates
for all the supports, tolerances
and understanding.
You guys are awesome. :D

Anyway, I want to wish my best friend, Sheau Huei
here a very happy birthday.
Have a good one. :)


Friday, November 5, 2010

Doubt

Sometimes, I think, I am crazy.

Seriously, no joke.
Sometimes, I got upset for nothing.

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME?

I ponder.

My life has been good.
My friends always accompany me,
I have never be alone.
Never.
It is just the emptiness that buried
deep inside my soul are killing me.
I always doubt myself at everything.
I think my friends got pissed
of that too.



I hope I won't get
any mental illness in my early 30s.
Seriously, I mean it.
I couldn't imagine the pressure that
I am going to face with
when I am working.
I wonder if I could take that?
Hmmm...yet to find out.

The greatest property that
I possess is the love from my friends and family.
I couldn't ask more.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Space

Some people don't think when they talk.

Yesterday night, I was having an awkward moment.
I was having a hard time
to share about my own privacy.
I don't feel like answer when people ask
me about my relationship.
This is something that I want to keep to myself.

People think that I am crazy sometimes.
But what people don't know is that
I can get pretty serious too.
I just don't like to expose that part of me to public.

Sometimes, I get annoyed when people ask me
about my relationship.
They will add a why at the back.
Seriously, you think that being single is
a disease that can't be cured or what?
The next ridiculous question would be:
"Are you gay?"
WTH?!
Yes, I used to get pissed off when people put me
into this shit.
Can't you guys just stop asking?
If I am gay also, it's none of your concern, right?
It would be my family concern.

Okay, back to the topic.
Believe it or not,
I had two relationship before.
Okay, that's it, I think that's enough for now.


I hope this shit will end soon.
I hope I won't being asked
about my relationship anymore.

Give me some space.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Awesome people


"Open your eyes, just say goodbye..."

Yea,I went to sing K again.
Twice in a week, awesome huh? Wee~
I am pretty enjoy my life now.
It's because I am always surrounded
by awesome people here.
That's only reason I like about Kampar.
I can't imagine to live in this place
without friends.
Seriously, I can't even imagine.
And I can go mad for staying close with Kah Hui
and Chin Hooi for a long period.
They couldn't stop
*cendok* me. -.-

Am I the only one who is slumber here?
I am still in a holiday mood now.
I feel reluctant to do anything now.
So far, I have only went through one chapter of
Pengajian Malaysia.
I don't even start doing my assignments yet.
Guess it's not hitting me hard yet? O_o

Kent and Szeung,
both of you please be happy,okay?
I don't know what can I do to make
you guys happy but I am here
if you need someone to talk.
Cheers.



Is it the season of love yet?
I feel like it's time for me
to start a relationship.
To have a girlfriend?
To have a boyfriend? << Okay, this sounds crazy. LOL~
Ignore me, I just want to spam my blog post. ;p

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Craziness

Things can get pretty crazy at times.

I went to Tesco 3 times in this week.
I went to jog and had
my breakfast at McD on 2 consecutive days.
I have 4 days break in this week and I didn't go back.
I was spending my free time
reading Pengajian Malaysia textbook
and I only managed to finish the first chapter. -.-
Doesn't it sounds crazy?

I admitted,
I spent quite a lot of money in this week.
Not to mention how much I
spent during my semester break.
I am going to broke in any time. :/
Guess,it's time to save money.
I didn't do much in these 4 days though.
I feel like it's wasted.
I should have
gone home. :s



There is one thing that
I want to comment here.

THE INTERNET CONNECTION HERE IS FRUSTRATING.

It's getting worse.
I couldn't even managed to
finish one episode of reality show smoothly.
Even if it's midnight.
Not to mention on how many times
I have pressed the pause button. URGH!


Sometimes, we expect more from others,
because we would be willing to do that much for them.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

It's My Day :)


Today is definitely my day.
Woke up at 6am in the early morning for jogging.
After that, we had our breakfast at McD. :D
What a good day to start with huh? :)

And then, we went to saloon in the afternoon.
We spent our whole day there. :)
I really enjoyed my day.



How's my new semester so far?
It was okay.
But class at night for 3 continuos
days is not my thing.
I would rather to have morning class
rather than night class.

I don't know why,
I seldom talk in class nowadays.
It's not that I am still dwelling on my results,
it's just that I don't feel like
talking in class anymore?
Well, I don't know.
O_o

My target for this semester?
I can't promise to anyone that I
will get a good results but at least,
I will try to get better.
Well, life gets better in time,right? :)