Stuck

I was supposed to revise for AnP
but I won't focus.
My mind was distracted.

What's your definition of trust?

For me,trust is a two ways street.
It's heartwretching to know
that someone doesn't trust me like I did to them.
I can feel the fire.
And my body is burning hot.
I tried to cool down myself but I failed to do so.
I laid on my bed but my mind
won't allow me to rest.

"The words you said to me~
They couldn't set me free~"
I very much like this song.
It's so much like me.



Sometimes,I am lost.
Sometimes,I expected too much.
Sometimes,I tried so hard to change myself.
Sometimes,I can't seem to understand myself.
Sometimes,I don't know what am I doing.
Sometimes,I don't know what I want.
Sometimes,I feel unloved.
Sometimes,I feel empty.
Sometimes...

And when people start to move on,
I don't seem to follow them.
I stuck in the past instead...

What I am asking for?

Reminisce

I missed those days when I was still a
foundation student.
Life was simpler and happier back then.
I wished I have the abilities to turn back time.
I was so stupid for wasting my time to argue with
Sh and Jeffrey.
I can't get enough.
I wished they are still here. =/

Is it a sin for being lazy? :s
I hope not.
Because I didn't do much these days.
Was busy catching up with dramas and movies. @@




It's time to study now.
Ciao.

Today :)

I am pretty sure that my eyelid is made up
of Slow Oxidative Fibers. :s
I figured it out when I were in Anatomy class.
I can hardly opened my eyes during the lecture class.
And I don't know why Queen was so excited when
Miss Ho showed us a figure of skeletal muscle.
Because it reminded her of someone?
Maybe. ;p

Thanks to that Nutrition projects,
I didn't have much sleep lately.
.
.
.
.
And I am finally done with my Nutrition project.
I don't have to worry about anything now.
No test,no quiz,no reports and
no assignment is needed to pass up for this while. :)

So,I went to Fun Fair just now.
And we actually played Spinner there.
Well,the Spinner here is not that high compare
to Genting one.
It's more like for kids. lol.



Okay,that's all for today.
It's time for me to turn in.
See ya. :)

A special weekend II :)

25th of July

I promised Susu and YM to go have
breakfast in the morning
but ended up I fell asleep on my bed.
I was having headache.

But they came to my house and knocked
my door anyway. Tsk.
I already sent a message to YM
earlier to inform that I am not feeling well,
but this girl is too stubborn.
Maybe she thought I lied to her? -.-
But I didn't give a damn to them anyway.
Because I couldn't move
and my head was heavy. :/

So,I woke up at 11 something in the morning.
The first thing I did was
Facebook-ing.
And I realized that YM spammed on my wall
and wrote something like this:
"Steve Loo FKK."
I was like what?! O_O
Then,
YM asked me whether want to join her for lunch or not
and I said yes.
To ease my guilts?
Maybe. LOL.

We went back to our house
respectively after lunch
because we ALL need to prepare for
tomorrow midterm paper.
I got Nutrition midterm
and they got Political Science.
I considered myself lucky because
I got only one chapter left to revise
and they haven't started their revision yet.
I was like what?
Plus,they got six chapters to study. O_O

I didn't really concentrate on my revision.
It's like a lot to memorise and
I didn't know what should I extract from
the lecture notes.
It's like everything seemed to be important
and will be coming out for tomorrow paper.
I was paranoid.
I felt unprepared even though
I finished my revision earlier than I expected.
...
I think that's all happened
on that particular day.

What a day,right? ;p

A special weekend I :)

24th of July

I woke up at 7am. *Yawn*
And I slept at 3 something last night.
Can you imagine how tired I am? *Yawn*

Was still yawning while getting myself ready.
Then,we gathered at Susu's house.
We reached Old Town at 7 something.
Was planning to have our breakfast at stall station
but ended up having our breakfast at market.

It's been months since the last time
I had my breakfast at Old Town.
Those were the days. ://

We roamed around Old Town
before we headed back to Westlake.
We managed to take some photos. ;p


1st

2nd

3rd

4th

5th

And you will wonder where we were?
It's the new apartment between
Pangsapuri Sutera Apartment and
Old Town.
Okay,I am suck in Geography.
Don't ask me for the direction. =/

So,we reached Susu's house at 9 something.
We thought of watching a movie.
So,we gave Toy Story 3 a play.
Do you know what actually happened?
We actually felt asleep at the starting part. O_o
We decided to go for something creepier instead.
We believed that will keep us awake.
LOL.
Stupid Analogy.
We actually felt asleep(AGAIN? Hell,yes.)
at the middle part of Saw I.


Guess we were too sleepy. Tsk.
We went back to our house to take a nap
because we were exhausted. =/
.
.
.
We had our dinner at Gold Label.


Pic of the day.

Blog will be updated again tomorrow for part II.
Stay tuned.

P/s: I need to go to sleep now.
I got class at 9am later. -.-

Friday 23th, mood:content :)

Woke up at 10 something in the morning.

And I actually felt great.
It's a feeling that you will shout:
"Have a nice day,everyone! It's going to be a good day!" :)
Managed to see Jess before she
went back to her hometown.
(It's not like I can't get enough to see her. lol)

Called delivery to order my lunch.
I told them that I wanted to order
Japanese Style Chicken Chop Rice
and
they gave me Cheese Chicken Chop Rice instead
which costed me 7.50. -.-
I think they misheard me.
The word 日式(japanese style) sounds
almost like 芝士(Cheese).

So,I started my revision for Nutrition
at 2 something.
I actually felt sleepy after I fliped through
few pages of the lecture notes. Tsk.
So,what I did is I took out my novel
and read through it.
And I got hooked.
Evermore is awesome. =DDD
I will definitely spare some times
to give it a read.
I got my study mood back right after
the reading.
I took out my lecture notes and stared at it.
My brain didn't seem to absorb what I read.
So,I decided not to torture myself,
I took a nap instead.
LOL.

When I got up,
it's already 6 something.
So,I went to took shower and
prepared myself for dinner.
Susu and YM came just on time.
YM was trying to scare me off but she failed. ;p
When I was looking for my flip-flop,
I found out something,
it's actually missing. O_O
(To that stupid thief:
"Come on,you got better option there,
why chose mine? I was like wth. -.-")

I suggested to have dinner at KFC
and they actually came to an
agreement with me. :D
So,we went to Tesco.
And I actually spent 50 plus there. O_O

Here:


Say YES to biscuit! ;p


How can you EVER say no to Famous Amos? ;p


Oh Chocolate~~~*Drool*


Believe me,I am still having it as my breakfast.
It's the best CEREAL I ever head. :D


Not forget about Nutritious foods:
Chocolate Milk+Yogurts *Yum*


Right after I got back from Tesco,
I went to Susu house to revise.
In my every instincts,
I KNOW that
I wouldn't concentrate on my study
if I were in my room. :s
So,I made the right decision.
I managed to finished 2 chapters. Wee~~~

I should turn in anytime soon.
I need to got up earlier tomorrow.
I will go to have my breakfast at
Old Town tomorrow. :)
P/s: I am wearing pyjama that sewed
by my mum right now.
Miss my mum all of a sudden. :s
My mum actually called me yesterday
to apologize to me because
she asked me to stay in Kampar
for this weekend.
She said that she most probably won't
have extra time to entertain me
if I go back on this weekend.
How sweet of my mum. :)))

AND AND AND
before I end this post,
I would like say some words here.

"I don't have to be somebody for you to like me,
if you like me,
you would like me for who I am,
not who you want me to be."

Signing off. :)

Mood swing

I slept at 4 last night.
I didn't do my Nutrition tutorial
nor my Anatomy report.
So,what did I do?

I spent 4 hours plus on Facebook+searching
for Photoshop tutorials+searching for the
right DSLR to buy.
It's not like I am getting one for myself
but I just REFUSED to do anything.
So not disciplined at all.
So,what's the point of posting those positive shits
on Facebook?
And how many times I need to tell myself
to wake up?

It just so annoying to have mood swing.
Thanks to Joing,
he made me to think again.
Think about something that bugged me since
the beginning of this semester.
The feeling of being odd one is not something
you can explain by words.
I do enjoyed the days with Queen and Joing
but they are not with me all the time.
And oh yeah,I do mix around with Indians
but the culture gaps are always there.


My very own theme song

Karma

The test was okay.
But seriously,
I am still vague.
I don't know whether I gave the
right answer or the another way round. :(((
Then,the Structural Biochemistry paper.
It was expected.
I have no hope to score that paper.
That's karma.
Who else to be blamed on
if it's not myself?
That's what I get because
I didn't memorise all the abbreviations
for 20 Amino Acids group.

Well,I am not going to dwell on it
because nothing can be done right now.
Why not I try to focus on my next paper right? :)
Seriously,I need to repent. -.-

Randomness rock! ;p

"I promise to love you forever - every single day of forever."
"Awwww~~~That's so sweet."
How I wished someone could say that to me too.
And that someone is not Edward nor Jacob
and not Bella of course.
Alice is the one. ;p
random.me.

I changed my thought about Eclipse.
It was not that bad afterall.
I am so up and down,right?
You bet. ;p
Okay,I made my mum fell asleep in cinema hall again.
No wait,it's almost. -.-

So,what's next?
I was planned to have a movie marathon.
I want to watch Predator and Inception too.
But sadly,my mum won't allow me to do that. =/

How's my preparation for Mathematics midterm
which is fall on tomorrow?
I did nothing with it for past two days.
And two days are just not enough.
I wanted to have more holidays.
I will miss my mum,badly. :s

Today is definitely my day :)

Today is definitely my day. :)
The test was okay.
I guess my efforts really pay off.

You are just lucky this time and
luck doesn't come everytime when you need it.
So,no more last minute revision next time,
okay,Steve Loo?
(Don't mind me,
I like to talk to myself. lol)

I am feeling great today. =DDD
I can't wait to go home.



And how I wish there is no Mathematics
midterm test on next Monday. :s
Anway,I will still go to watch Eclipse on the
big screen regardless how suck it could be. LOL.
I just couldn't help it.

It's Twilight thing that you wont understand.

Song of the day:

Katharine McPhee - Home

Gotta go now.
Ciao.

I ♥ my angel

What a day. =DDD
I actually laughed like a crazy man
for past 2 days.
How long I haven't laugh like this?
I ponder.
Thanks to Queen and Joing,
I actually feel like I am myself again.

Yeah~I am going home tomorrow.
I miss my family so much,
especially my mum.
And of course the Penang's food. ;p

And people will asking me why I insist
to go home on this weekend
when the Mathematics midterm test
is just around the corner which is
fall on next Monday?
It's is because of
...
My father.

I need to rush back to pray my father
on this coming Saturday.

You know,sometimes I feel grateful
that mum can't/don't know how to
access to the internet.
I don't want to burden her
with my unnecessary emotions on
how much I miss my dad
where I posted it all on Facebook.

I don't want her to be upset because of me.
That's the last thing I ever want it to be happened.
I am suppose to be tough in front of her
regardless of how weak I am.
And sometimes,I wonder whether she is doing
the same thing too.
I can't wait to see my mum.
I ♥ her,unconditionally.

Alright,I should have turn in now.
Wish me luck on my test tomorrow. ;p

That's what we called surprise ;p

While I was searching a place to sit,
Miss Anto (Our Nutriton Lecturer) told
us to sit according to our gender.
I had a bad feeling about that.
She told us that we will having a game
session today.
I would called that a Guess The Word game.

So,guys and girls were required to volunteer
themselves to be the shower/presenter to give
clues by showing signs/gestures
for the rest to guess the answer.

Rules:
1) The shower/presenter can't whisper/murmur/talk.
2) Time limit is 1 minute.

And the funniest part was when one girl was trying
to show constipation.
I should have capture it down to show you guys. lol.

In the sense of presenting,
I would vote for girls. ;p
Girls use more proper gestures instead
of making us laugh. lol.

And to Miss Anto:
"How can you came up with those words like
Gluconeogenesis and Amino Acid?" wth.
How are you going to present those words
with gestures?
You tell me. -.-


Totally Random

It has to be better day :)

First of all,

I would like to say thank you to

Mouse,Queen and Jooing for cheering me up.
Seriously,
you guys don't have to ask me the same question
over and over again. lol.
If I am okay,I will be okay. :)
But I am glad that you asked though.
Appreciate that.

Actually it's just me,
the stubborn side of me wanted to take things in a
negative way.
Why I can't switch my brain when I am down?
How many brain cells did I kill in
these past two days?
Perhaps millions. Tsk.

I must have a better good reason for being
emotional next time.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
I am wasting my time to think about the things
that I shouldn't dwell on.
I wasted the time that I should use it
on my revision. -.-


Tada!

I edited the Eclipse wallpaper I got from the
official website.
Okay,I know it's not nice. -.-

I got only 3 hours to sleep now
but I still insist to blog. wth.

Something more

I was trying to distract myself.
So,
I watched Eclipse just now.



I knew,I broke my promise. -.-
I planned to watch it on big screen
but I was too tempted to take a peek first before that.
So,I searched for the movie and watched.

To be frank,
Eclipse is dead boring.
Okay,it's slightly better than New Moon. Tsk.
I don't even know what did I watched for past
two hours.

This is just not right.
I was looking forward to watch this movie
since last year.
Was I expecting too much?
Or it's just my imagination that makes
everything more interesting than it
seems to be?
I like the books more.

Okay,back to me.
I don't know why I am not enjoying
my degree life.
Maybe I didn't make things clear enough.
Why I am here?
For study,right?
So,what was I expected?
I am sick of myself for blaming
myself for everything.
I am sick of telling myself
to care less but I couldn't help myself.

All I wanted to be is just a friend.
To be a nice to my coursemates
but they don't seem to buy it.
I don't blame on them though.
It just me,the one trying so hard to blend in
but it won't change the facts that
I am the odd one.
Or mayble,the extra one.

"I will be fine." I told myself.

Chinese or Indians?

No,I am not going to whine about how
bad I performed just now. :s
I already did my revision for like 2-3 times and
I still can't recall all those 20 amino acids.
Who to blame?
Me,myself. -.-

So, I just finished watching 《蒲松龄》 last night.
The ending...meh...is just so-so.
I was expecting something more but it failed me.

And there's something that is rather interesting I
wanted to share with you guys here.
(At least,I think so. lol.)
I mix with more Indians nowadays.
SH just teased me about that just now.
She said she will see a darker me when she
meet with me next time.
(Just because of I mixed with Indians more often now
but it doesn't necessary for me to get darker,
right? wth.
She is so mean to me. lol.)

Anyway,to Indians that read my blog,
no offend,okay?

You know what?
I found out Indians nowadays are even more
friendly compared to Chinese.
Anyway,it's just my thought,
don't take it seriously,okay? :)



Gotta go now.
See you people around. ;p

To be a real man

I just feel like blogging all of the sudden.
I am so random,right? ;p

Speaking of which,
I was having a little talk with a new
friend of mine last night.
I just knew that he lost his dad on 2007 too.
Do you guys that there is always a hole there
deep inside my heart?
It won't cure.
It is always there.
Wounded.
And I understand what my friend had gone through.
It's not a feeling that you can understand if
you are not the one who experienced it.

And when people asked about my father,
I will tell them not to be sorry for anything
because he is in a better place now.
It's good for him after all,right? =)
But still,I can't accept the facts that he
is not here anymore.

Sometimes,when I dreamed about him,
I will pull a smile on my face.
And how I wished the dream is true.
But sadly,reality failed me.
I need to wake up from my dream
and learn to be a real man.



To be a real man doesn't cry,
doesn't moan, doesn't complain;
To be someone makes decisions and lives
with the consequences;
To be someone that accepts responsibility
for his actions and his words;
To be someone who is strong enough
to cling on;
To be the backbone of his family
and doesn't have time to be weak.

I will be one.
I will make you proud of me,dad.

And to Joing and Foong Vai,don't be emo please.
I am tired of saying cheer up. ;p
So,why not you guys just cheer up?
For my sake? :)

I gotta go.
Need to revise for Structural
Biochemistry already.
Got midterm test on this coming Saturday. Tsk.
(I ain't studying at last minute,okay,people?
I did my revision already last week.
I just feel like revise it again.
Practice makes perfect,right? :)

P/s:I am kinda addicted to Hillsong's song already. ;p

A thought lead to a life :)

Do you know what exactly influenced your life at first?
A thought.
I got the idea from the business talk
I attended last time.

Thought>Habit>???
(Oh crap,I was trying to recall but I phailed.
I can't remember.
Sorry,guys. Tsk.
For your information,I was trying to show you
guys a business model.
Something to do with a thought and lifestyle thingie.
But I can't find it.-.-)

Okay,back to the topic.
Things doesn't have to be done in only one way.
It can be done in many ways.
You can choose the hard way or another way round.

Jackson,I don't know whether you will read
this or not but I got something to tell you here.

I knew that you have been a good friend of mine.
You always gave me advices when I seemed to be lost.
You will not hesistate to pull me up
whenever I am stucked.
Thanks for that,really.

But I was too stubborn to hear you out.
I knew that you doing all this is for my own good.
It took me quite a while to realise it.
I just hope that you can hear me out too.

Okay,maybe I am not really a good friend of you.
Like you said:

True friend are those who advice you to run forward
together and not those who always ask you for
entertainment only!

But but but,
we can do things another way round.
I can work things out in my way too.
Why say no if I got a better way?

I can have time for me to play
(Blog+Facebook+Plurk+Hang out with friends+Twitter+
blah blah blah. I think I shared too much here.lol.)
and I can have time for my study too.
University life is not necessary all about S.T.U.D.Y.
You can have friends and some entertainments
too at the same time.
It depends on how you allocate your time.
I hope you are not stressing out.
Anyway,all the best in your future.

That's all for today.

P/s: I haven't finish my drawing yet. -.-
Can someone just draw for my sake? lol.
Gotta go now.
See you people around.

For friendship,cheers!

I found this song via Jango.
I would like to dedicate this song to all my friends
who care for me and love me all these while.

Song title: Footprints In The Sand



Lyrics:

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much I no along the way
Then I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life
Flash across the sky
So many times have I
Been so afraid ooh
And just when I
Have thought I've lost my way
You give me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

When I'm weary
Well I no you'll be there
And I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand x 2



For friendship,cheers! :)

Epic Fail

I don't know why I always feel like blogging

in the middle of the night.
It's so wrong especially when it's 3 something in the midnight
and I got class on 8am later. Tsk.
But I can't help it.
It's like when a question remain unanswered
and it will stuck in your brain.
It's annoying. -__-"


That's me. ~.~

I found out something is changing inside of me.
I seldom on my Facebook now and then.
Maybe I start to care less?
Or I am too busy to even bother what's going
on at Facebook?
I can't be sure.

Well,my degree life is err...okay.
I kinda enjoy the feeling of getting stuffed.
Maybe it's because my life is more content now?
Think so.
There is one thing that bugs me.
It's the Anatomy and Physiology 1 reports.
I need to draw more now and then. Tsk.
My drawing sucks big time.
I don't even know what was I drawing. =_="


Okay,enough of the rantings.
I REALLY NEED TO GO NOW.
Ciao.

Twilight love♥

Okay,since the Queen and Joing have updated their blog,
so,why not I update my blog too,right? ;p

I am going to blog about the Twilight Saga this time.
(Not again?)
Speaking of which,
I went to yam cha with the gang just now.
Once I entered the Maha Maju,
I noticed that the TV was showing Twilight and it's just
started not long ago.



So,
I quickly settled down and watched.
*Wink*
I told them that I am going to stay until the
end of the show and so they agreed.
I just knew that two of them are big fans of
Twilight Saga too.
What a coincidence right? ;p



I am so going to watch Eclipse.
No one and nothing can stop me from watching it.
(I know it's crazy. lol)
But I can't help with myself. ;p

It's 3.50a.m. already. OMG!
I haven't done my revision for Structural Biochemistry.
I still got few pages left.
Plus,I haven't start doing the tutorial for
Anatomy 1 yet.
*Phailed*

Okay,I gotta go now.
See you guys around.
Have a nice day,peeps. :)