Sometimes

Sometimes, I feel like I am not belong.
Sometimes, I feel like I am all alone.
Sometimes, when I am down, I don't
know who should I turn to.
Sometimes, I am feeling depressed
with no apparel reason.
Sometimes, I feel like to listen to sad songs.
Sometimes, I feel like what I did is not enough.
Sometimes, I laughed so hard
to pretend that I am okay.
Sometimes, I feel so empty inside.

Sometimes, things, just falling apart.

這該死的摩羯座

我發現，我最近越來越不
懂得控制我的情緒了。
常常爲了一小件事
而大吵大鬧。
昨天差點跟一位朋友吵到翻臉了。
對不起，我知錯了。T___T

剛才看過了一篇
關於摩羯座的文章之後，
我的表情是：
O____O
瓦靠！簡直是太准了。
准到嚇死人！
想看的話，請按這裡。

摩羯座的人真的很矛盾。
有時想當個好人；
有時卻狠下心當個壞人。
不要說別人不了解我，
我有時候也不了解我自己。

還有，摩羯座的人真的很敏感。
這點，我真的非常贊同。
那些你覺得很小件的事情，
都在摩羯座的人的頭腦裏大大地放大著。

魔羯真是一个十分敏感的星座，
他能够通过一件小事看透一个人，
也十分了解什么是好的，什么是适合社会的，
同时，魔羯又是一个极其爱
自我怀疑的星座，
他清楚自己的阴暗气质，
所以往往不敢完全肯定自己的分析。



前陣子，我真的很鑽牛角尖，
跟某位友人發生一些
不愉快的事情之後，
整個人很消沉，讀書讀不進，
考試又考不好。

我，很久沒跟中學的朋友聯係了。
前三天，我其中一個高中的
同學聯絡上了我。
不知道是不是太久沒聯絡了，
感情竟然變生疏了。
談話，除了問候，就真的談不上來了。
剩下的，只是尷尬與沉默。
説到底，現在的我只剩下大學的朋友了。
我啊，是不是很可悲？

迷蒙的魅力，有誰懂？

我是魔羯，你无须懂。

這都是你不知道的事

人與人之間的關係
真的 好深奧，好難懂。

我，老是不懂怎麽拿捏。
或許，有時候我真的做的太過分了吧。

講了一些不該講的話，
開了一個不該開的玩笑，
做了一件不該做的事情。
或是給太多多餘的關心。
有時候，我真的很無言。

我只是純粹想要表現我的關心，
它，卻變成無形的傷害。

這次，我真的錯了嗎？

有誰，能教會我這家事？

魚 不 是 鳥，怎 會 了 解 鳥 的 快 樂。
鳥 不 是 人，怎 會 了 解 人 的 荒 唐。
人 不 是 鳥，怎 會 了 解 鳥 的 自 由。
鳥 不 是 魚，怎 會 了 解 魚 的 深 沉。
魚 不 是 人，怎 會 了 解 人 的 幼 稚。
你 不 是 我，怎 會 了 解 我。

脆弱

電腦播放著的是輕鬆的快樂，
但我卻不知不覺感性了起來。

小時候，不懂事，
從來都沒想過爸媽會有
離我而去的那一天。

從小，我就討厭生離死別。
記得有一次，
有一位來自遠方的
親戚到訪我家裏，
寄宿在我幾天過後，
我連說再見的勇氣也沒有。
我只能望著她的背影偷偷地哭泣。

我想，爸爸的離去對我的
人生影響實在太大了。
他在我十八嵗生日之前就離我而去了。

他這一走，丟下給我的是一個沉重的包袱。

這包袱，實在太重了。
有時候，把我壓得喘不過氣來。
在媽媽和姐姐的面前，
我不能顯示出我那脆弱的一面。

即使日子有多難熬，
我都要咬緊牙關
繼續地走下去。

Restless

"Oh darling don't you ever grow up,
don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up,
don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Wont let no one break your heart
No one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
Never grow up..."

Taylor Swift - Never grow up

Sometimes,
I wished that I never grow up.
Things are very simple back then.
But now you get easily depressed just
simply because you can't complete a single task.
I was very disappointed with myself
on how I screwed up my presentation.
I was too anxious and I just let the
nervousness take over me.

I guess, it just so frustrated to know
that no matter how much efforts you put in,
you still get the same results and you
are still the one who left behind.
And when that happened,
you just couldn't stop doubting
and questioning yourself.
This Political Science
is getting on my nerves!
I barely have time for myself
because of this stupid assignment.

ARGH!
I just can't wait to get over THIS!

How I wished that I can go home now. :s
Unfortunately,my mum won't be around
on this weekend.
I serious NEED a
place that I can run to now. :s

Thank god, I still got friends
to keep me entertained
before I went mad. :)

Well, I got to go now.
Bunch of work are waiting for me
to take them down. :s

P/s: I hate that I have to
attend lab on Friday. T__T

Life is too short to be serious.
Now, laugh your ass off! XD

Blah blah blah~

It's been 13 days already since the last update?!
It's either I got nothing to write about
or I am just simply busy with
my daily activities.

Cycling to campus is plain tiring.
I am thinking of taking the bus instead
of cycling.
Whenever I reached campus,
I felt like all my energy have been drained.
And how am I suppose to pay attention
in class with such condition?
I know right, I should exercise more
instead of giving myself those
unnecessary excuses.
I miss playing badmintons. :s

I am too lazy to do anything recently.
I just feel like sit back and relax
without worry of anything.
But I can't be LIKE this anymore.
These coming weeks are going to
push me to the limit.
Political Sciences assignments,
Political Science midterm,
Metabolic Biochemistry report,
replacement classes,
blah blah blah~
I must get myself plenty of sleep
before I could fight them off. @_@

Well, well, well,
Valentine's day is tomorrow.
It has nothing to do with me initially
as I am currently happily single
but it had become an issue
to my Sakai family.
It's either they
( or I should just simply put *him* instead)
couldn't wait for getting me a girlfriend,
or at the very least,
a date for Valentine's Day?
I think they don't understand
English sometimes. -.-
Seriously, do you guys really think that
being single is a bad thing?

Yes, sometimes I get jealous with
those couples but then,
I am not ready for that yet.
(What do you mean by
not ready for that yet? O_o)
Okay, let's put it in this way.
I am not a person that
fall in love easily.
This is just not me.
Many people get into a relationship
because they don't want to alone or
they just simply
don't want to be loveless.

Now, this I don't understand.
You don't get into a relationship
because you want to feel love.
Getting in a relationship
is a big thing!
You don't fell in love with somebody
yesterday and then you
break up with her/him on next day.
A relationship means commitment.
If both parties are not committed
to each others,
then, there is no point to
start a relationship.

A relationship means responsibility too.
You take care of each others
and solve the problems together.
It's not like when something happened,
you gave up on it.
I might be open to other aspects
but I am totally conservative on this.
Well,it's time to go to bed.

P/s: Happy Valentine's Day!

I am a lazy bum

I guess it's time to revive my blog. :s

It's been a while since the my last entry.
Sorry, my dear blog, I have no
intention to neglect you.
I wish I can spend more time with
you too but I can't.
(X: Okay, you could stop being
dramatic now, it's annoying.
Me: Oh yeah? This is the way of how
a sakai update his blog.
You don't like it? Click X.)

Nah~~~ **** you lah! xD



Okay, I know it's too random. lol.

If there is anything that I could
blame on regards this matter,
I would put the blame on the slow
connection I got here.
It took forever to load the older post
and it got me frustrated sometimes.
What I did next was
clicking on the X button. -__-"

Week 2 was another busy week.
It's a week full of activities.
Food, CC, Ipoh and blah blah blah.
It's basically more like what I
did in the first week.
What else can I say?
Life is a routine.



It's good to be home.
But the bad thing is that I don't feel like
doing anything when I am home.
I know I can't slack off anymore
but I couldn't help it.
Reports,assignments and revisions
are waiting for me. T_T

SOMEONE, PLEASE SAVE ME FROM MYSELF!

P/s:
Dear all my friends who stay in Johor,
let's hope for the best,okay?
I hope things will get better in time.
People,enjoy your holiday
while it last!
Have a good year ahead!
Huat ah! XD