Dear diary: I am revivió

Dear diary,

it's been too long since the last blog post huh?

So, I decided to post something here.

For those who are concerning about me and of course,

my results, don't worry,

I am perfectly fine here.
At least, I am still alive here. lol.

It's not that I performed well in my September final examination,

but, I decided to let go.
Letting go is not necessary referring to giving up.

It's just that I find it pointless to dwell in the past

because there isn't anything that I could do now

to change the outcome.

If that's my fate, I just got to accept the way

it is and try more harder next time.

Sometimes I am wondering whether I

chose the right path or not.

It will be too late for me to even think about making a change now
because I am already a year two degree student.
I am running out of time and I don't have such money
to consider other options that I could have.

But, I ain't feeling regret for choosing this path.

Frankly speaking, I do like Sciences.

Seriously, I can't even imagine myself as a Arts student at all.

Actually I am amazed at myself.

Because I don't know how-the-heck-on-earth I can be this slumber this time,

or in a better word, I feel numb.

It's not like I am giving up but,

I can see this coming.

I knew that this will happen to me,

but I what I didn't expect is that it got worse.

I have a dilemma right now ---'m seriously

missing those friends that having their internship now.

Especially the two monkeys.

Knowing that they can meet each others and

hang out frequently in a month

WITHOUT me is a bittersweet experience.

The sweet is that I know that

they are having a good time and enjoying their life in

Penang and the bitter came from my sense.

----Because I know that they aren't missing me at all.

BECAUSE THEY ARE ASSHOLES. :/
They are way too busy to even think about me. :S

And what is even worse is that I need to go back

to that JUNGLE called Kampar without them.

Damn. That's sucky.

You put a smile on my face.

But then, why you took it away?