我要我的快樂

看著面子書上的生日祝福，
我苦笑著。

一早起來，
我就收到了一個坏消息，
媽媽突然改變主意，
不想去檳城了。
我唯一的快樂也被奪走了。
沒去吉隆坡也就算了，
減少我上網的時間也沒關係，
可是檳城也去不了，
爲什麽？！

沒有朋友來幫我慶祝生日，
我本來就很失落。
現在，連檳城也去不了，
我想我也難免會失望吧？
與其跟媽媽大吵大鬧，
我倒不如保持沉默。
我不想在我的大日子裏
還跟親人大吵大鬧的，
這樣很不理智，
也很大義不孝。

我真的很不開心，
我想大聲地獅吼出來，
可是，我辦不到。
最好這樣能憋死我啦。

我希望我在新的一年裏
能變得更灑脫，更成熟。
不要那麽執著，鑽牛角尖了，
這樣活著，會很累了。
活得開心就好。

夢想與現實

《紅蜻蜓》真是一首經典好歌。
它唱出了我當下的心情。
讀完了九把刀的《后青春期的詩》，
心理多了不少感慨。
感慨我的青春已不在，
感慨我沒在年少輕狂的時候
為自己作了一些瘋狂的事。
我過得太平凡了，
太乖了。

“我們該為我們的人生交上功課。”
這句話寫得太好了。
我們本該為自己的夢想努力地奮鬥，
不管前方路途遙遠，
有多艱難，
我們不放棄，
終有一天，
我們的夢想會被實現的，
不是嗎？

我小時候也有這樣一個夢想。
而我的夢想就是想成爲一名作家。
然而，夢想和現實之間是
有著一段很遙遠的距離。
我們常常說：
“夢想不能當飯吃。”
這是鉄一般的事實，
誰也改變不了的事實。

然而，我真的有為我的夢想而努力嗎？
我沒有。
夢想敗給了現實，
我想是吧。
夢想歸夢想，
我不想當個一輩子被
夢想綁死死的窮光蛋。

然而，我的心如今燃起了一把火。
我想，我該為我的夢想做些什麽的。
加油吧，小王子。

“Dreams are like stars...
you may never touch them,
but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”

Life sucks :s

Finally, I can go online.
Life without Internet sucks, man.
I know right, I have repeated this
sentence for N times.

Well, I just got home two days ago.
The Malacca trip was just okay.
I don't know if I were expecting too much
or what but I just didn't really enjoy it. :s
On the other hand, I did enjoy the Kl trip. :D

Anyway, I am supposed to be in
Hong Kong by now but I am not.
Plan got cancelled due to
some personal reasons.
Damn, how I wished I am in
Hong Kong right now. T_T
And what sadden me is that
I can't even go to Kl.
It means that I will need to
celebrate my birthday all by my own.
This is just so sad.
Or a better word, pathetic. :s



Anyway, I want to wish everyone Merry Christmas
and Happy New Year in advance! Enjoy! :)

Doubts and uncertainties

At last, I am free.
I am supposed to be happy
right now but I ain't
feeling that way.
Why?
I ponder. :@

Maybe the holiday mood
haven't hit me yet?
Or maybe because I am all alone
in Kampar now? :s



Well, I screwed up but there
is no point for me to dwell on it now
because things once done
can't be undone.
So, I should leave it alone now.
But I couldn't help myself to
think about the burden
that I am going to face with
on next semester.



I couldn't imagine myself taking
good care of all the Science
subjects while making sure
that I won't flunk my Mathematics paper.
This is just too heavy for me.
But that's the only option that
I have right now.

At the same time,
I have to make sure that
I earn 50 credits and pass the two Lan units
before my Y1S2,
which is before my industrial training.

Well, I know it's still too early for me
to fill myself with these unnecessary
doubts but then again, I couldn't help it.
Someone please distract me? :/

Recently, I spent quite a lot of money.
Sometimes, I wished that there is
another way for me to earn it back too.
Help?

Well, I guess that's all for now.
Anyway, happy holiday
to all my coursemates! :)
See ya!

A moment like this. :D

These few days have been
the busiest days of my life.
I am like log in to
Facebook twice a day only.
That's new, right? :p

For your extra information,
I was crowned with the title
of Facebook-King since
I was doing my foundation
and now, some of my friends
still calling me that.
They claimed that I log in
to Facebook 24 hours per day.
I HAVE NO LIFE. :/



Friday, 3rd of December

Me, Kacee, Ch and Ger have our dinner together
at Premas.
Then, we went to cybercafe to play L4D 2.
Kacee rejected to join us at first
and but then we actually made Kacee to go with us. xD

Saturday, 4th of December

Me, Kent, Kacee, Ch and Ger
went to Old Town to have our breakfast there.
Then, we went to Kent's house
to shelter ourselves from the rain.
Later on, I went to campus to attend a campaign called
Kempen Alam Sekitar.

The campaign was a big success,
I never regret that I joined. :D
It was so much fun to see my gang
perform in dramas
and I never knew that Ean can act so good.
He is professional, man. HAHA~

I headed back to home right after the campaign.
Then, I went to play badminton with the triple K.
I was so stupid that I overwork myself
and ended up, I puke everywhere.
Pity my poor body condition,
I am pretty sure that I looked so pale
that almost made people think that I am a zombie.
Thanks to Kacee, Kent and Ch for tooking care of me
when I was so weak. :)

Later at night,
me, triple K and Ger headed to cybercafe again
because Kent was being jealous that
he couldn't join us on Friday night.
After that,
we celebrated Ger's birthday
together with Wallance and Bertlin.





Then, me, Ch and Ger went
to have lok lok while
Kent and Kacee was watching
us enjoying our lok lok.

This is mainly because:
1, Kent said that if he wanted to eat lok lok,
few sticks won't satisfy him.
He will finish everything at the stall. LOL~
(Don't kill me please if you see this, Kent. xD)
2, Kacee said that she won't eat lok lok at other places
except the one who owned by her brother.
(Kacee, stupiak theory, booo~~~~~
Again, don't kill me please if you see this xD)

The night is not ended just like that only.
We headed to mamak to have some talks.
Then, Ger was being so random,
he felt like having ice cream
out of the sudden.

So, we head to McD.
We planned to stay there until 4am
and then we will have our breakfast at McD
but Ger was too tired and so,
we called it a night.
(I think I tortured Kacee a lot at that time
because she wanted to go home
but I won't allow her to do so,
evil me,
hehehehehe! xD)

Monday, 6th of December

Five of us went to Old Town
to have breakfast together again.
Kacee was being a S.A.K.A.I
because she was imitating the
uncle that selling
*ham kok zai*
and she keep shouting *ham kok zai*
to annoy us. -.-
So childish of her, right? xD
Then, we went to Kent's house.
We were playing PS2, man.
I haven't play that for I-don't-know-how-long.
Later at night, we went to Sze Ung's house to
give her a birthday surprise.



I hope she likes our surprise though. :)
Then, Kah Leng came to join us and
went to have dinner
together with us.
After that, we headed to Ch's house for revision.
And then, we called it a night.
What a enjoying monday, right? :D

Picture of the day

Inilah muka orang yang sibuk main game. xD

Emotion

This is weird.
People claimed that
I am a little bit different today.
Just because I shut my freaking mouth,
that's not mean that I am
emo or whatsoever. -.-
People, I am perfectly fine,
so, no worries. :)

But something is really wrong with me,
Because I find it hard for me to
control my temper recently.
I couldn't stop using shut up.
I think I have abused the word. :/
So, people, if I offended you by that word,
I am very sorry, I didn't mean it that way.



I have been a lazy bum these days.
All I did is watching reality shows,
surfing the internet,
hang out with my friends
but nothing more.
I better start digging notes now.

I don't know if I can pass my PM or not.
Damn, I screwed up my test 2.
I never expect myself will get
such low marks. :s

There is one thing that I want to share here.
I think I will feel much better
if I choose to share it out.



Dear housemates, especially those
who stay at 2nd floor,
seriously, damn you these people lar.
I am so done with you people.
I didn't take any action to revenge
on you guys because most of you are girls
and I am a guy,
I ought to be more nice to you people.
But then, you guys never respect me.
I didn't expect you guys to smile to me
or whatsoever
but at least, don't make such face
to me when we meet.
And please, this is not your house,
don't always expect others to help you
to clean up the living room.
I didn't ask you guys to clean the
living room, but at least,
don't make it dirty, can or not?
It's always smelly and the area near
to the sink in the living room is
always stuffed with rubbish,
can't you guys just throw
it at somewhere else?
Not to mention
about the laggy internet issue.

Okay, I am done whining.
ARGH! I wish nothing but these people
to move out from my house.
Time to bed, I wish tomorrow
is going to be a better day. :)

Crazy life, crazy people, crazy me

Oops I did it again.

I mean, I did crazy things again. xD

It was a coincidence actually.
Me and my two daughters
took the bus after we
finished our PM class.
Then, we walked our way to New Town.
After that, we met Polar, QJ and Sally,
so I suggested to have dinner together.
Then, we decided to have our dinner at
668 串串炉.
So random, right?
Well, that's me. :p

We went there at 9pm and we
finished our dinner at 11++pm.
W00ts! :D



Well,
This is not the only crazy thing
that I did in this week.
I went to sing K with the
Triple K and Ger
after our Computer System
group presentation.
IT'S INDEED FUN!
AND WILD TOO!
RAWR!
HAHA!
I never had these much fun before.
We really sang ourselves out loud on that night.
Quoted from Kent:
"The sakai-ness continues..."
More to come, people. :P

P/s: Sorry, I always forgot to take
pictures while we were having fun. :/